After 3 days of rocky water, calm has been restored to our house.
I had to get my head around the idea that my parents are disappointed in the choices that I have made. I get where she was coming from. I respect her opinion & can live with the fact that I did exactly what I needed to do when presented with the situation. I am doing a good job at being the mother & father in this family. I am not ashamed or embarrassed about who I am & where I have come from.
I am rebellious & that's an asset when going against the flow of what is acceptable in this world. I am spontaneous & that is what makes it an adventure. I am immature & juvenile but does anyone really like a party-pooper around. That is what I have been for 3 days. I was such a fun-sucker. I apologize to all my friends & family out there.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
In moments like these......
My mom & grandmother are here this week. Mom is splitting her time between Katie & I as her Spring break was last week & our is this week. My grandmother from Alaska is staying at my aunt's house until tomorrow. I get to pick her up & bring her to my house.
I love my family more than anything but I feel like big goof-ball when they are here. I am such a misfit & do not feel like a measure up to all the rest. I am not married....but have been. That is two strikes.....I have a teenage daughter who acts like a teenage daughter....nothing wrong with that but I am suppose to be keeping her in check. We all know that is like herding cats. Ajane is a wonderful young lady. But as her mother I am not leading a good example....strike three.
I feel the pressure days, weeks & months in advance. I let it effect how I handle my everyday life. I let it effect my relationships with my church family. I withdraw & attempt to secure the perimeter. My natural defense. As I sit here, I am ticked at myself.
Mom gave me an earful last night after services about me not leading a good example for Ajane' by piercing my ear, getting a tattoo & being so impulsive. I know that is my character flaw & I take the calculated risks. Am I a failure? Am I an embarrassment to my family? Am I a poor mother? I am just really down & can't see any light? On top of that I cried in front of Ashleigh last night. Didn't mean to but I hurt so bad. My heart is shredded.
I love my family more than anything but I feel like big goof-ball when they are here. I am such a misfit & do not feel like a measure up to all the rest. I am not married....but have been. That is two strikes.....I have a teenage daughter who acts like a teenage daughter....nothing wrong with that but I am suppose to be keeping her in check. We all know that is like herding cats. Ajane is a wonderful young lady. But as her mother I am not leading a good example....strike three.
I feel the pressure days, weeks & months in advance. I let it effect how I handle my everyday life. I let it effect my relationships with my church family. I withdraw & attempt to secure the perimeter. My natural defense. As I sit here, I am ticked at myself.
Mom gave me an earful last night after services about me not leading a good example for Ajane' by piercing my ear, getting a tattoo & being so impulsive. I know that is my character flaw & I take the calculated risks. Am I a failure? Am I an embarrassment to my family? Am I a poor mother? I am just really down & can't see any light? On top of that I cried in front of Ashleigh last night. Didn't mean to but I hurt so bad. My heart is shredded.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Here's some Dirt on Kara!
1 . What time did you get up? 2:30- I had tons on my mind 7 had to make a list of what had to be done to get ready for TAKS Countdown. Graded papers until 3:30 then back to sleep.
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds. They are the strongest substance on the planet, a 10 on the Mohs Hardness Scale.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? The Minutemen with Jamie & Ajane. Horrible movie but love the company.
4. What is your favorite TV show? Dog the Bounty Hunter,
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Egg in a Tortilla or Cinnamon Rolls
6. What is your middle name? I take the 5th....Louise.
7. What food do you dislike? Anything that grows on a vine....allergic.
8.What is your favorite CD? Roxette or Van Halen
9. What kind of car do you drive? Chevrolet 1500 Pickup
10. What is your favorite sandwich? Subway Melt from Subway
11. What characteristic do you despise? Liars. My entire life was wrecked by one lie.
12. Favorite item of clothing? T-shirt & athletic shorts, Jeans
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Durango, Colorado. I found peace there one summer when I was in the lowest spot in my life. I know that God must vacation there too. We had a lovely time.
14. Favorite brand of clothing? Anything cotton.
15. Where would you retire to? I will never be able to retire. But I will have to be near an airport, hospital & in a place that has mild weather.
16. What was your most memorable birthday? 30...my family of friends made it a blast.
17.Favorite sport to watch? Baseball. Atlanta Braves
18. Furthest place you are sending this? Whoever reads this blog.
19. Who will send it back first? One of my Blogging buddies
20. When is your birthday? September 11th
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? I am good to go as long as I wake up on my own accord. Do not disturb me otherwise.
22. What is your shoe size? 8 1/2 so I buy a 9
23. Pets? 350 head of cattle, gigantic cattle dog named Rusty, 2 Weiner dos, Niles & Frazier
24.Any new and exciting news you 'd like to share with us? My mom is coming to visit me for 3 days & I do not have to share her with my sister.
25. What did you want to be when you were little? A cowboygirl, who wore cowboygirl boots & shorts. Then a Air Force fighter pilot....blow out a shoulder so a teacher/coach was my dream.
26. How are you today? I don't know. Will someone tell me?
27. What is your favorite candy? 100 Grands
28. What is your favorite flower? Sunflower
29. Is there a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? July 4th...I love this country & the good that it stands for.
30. What is your full name? Kara Louise Aston Powell
31. What are you listening to right now? The hum of the computer & the typing of the keys.
32. Last thing you ate? Domino's Hawaiian Pizza & 7up
33. Do you wish on stars? Every night. God knows what I need.
34. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Orange.
36. The first person you spoke to on the phone today? No one. I did not get a call today.
37. Favorite soft drink? 7 up
38. Favorite Restaurant Chain? Whataburger
39. Real hair color? Dark Brown
40. What was your favorite toy as a child? Tricycle, Bike
41. Summer or winter? Summer....I need to be outside. I am suffering from cabin fever currently.
42. Hugs or kisses? Can't have one without the other
43. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla with cCarmel topping
44. Coffee or tea? Sweet Tea
45. Do you want your friends to email you back? DUH
46. When was the last time you cried? Kara does not cry....yes she does. In my team meeting on Monday with the principal during a very heating arguement & verbal fight.
48. What did you do last night?Ladies Bible Class
49. What are you afraid of? Being alone for the rest on my life.
50.Salty or sweet? Salty...Coca-Cola & Peanuts are the greatest.
51.How many keys on your key ring? 7....3 are for the travel trailer.
52. How many years at your current job?Teaching 7, Poteet 3
53. Favorite day of the week? Thursday
54. How many towns have you lived in? 8....I think North Pole, AK Clovis, NM Lubbock, TX Artesia, NM Dexter, NM San Antonio, TX Pleasanton, TX Jourdanton, TX
55. Do you make friends easily? Depends. I can strike up a conversation but it takes years to make a friend.
56. How many people will you send this to? Clueless
57. How many will respond? Got me!
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds. They are the strongest substance on the planet, a 10 on the Mohs Hardness Scale.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? The Minutemen with Jamie & Ajane. Horrible movie but love the company.
4. What is your favorite TV show? Dog the Bounty Hunter,
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Egg in a Tortilla or Cinnamon Rolls
6. What is your middle name? I take the 5th....Louise.
7. What food do you dislike? Anything that grows on a vine....allergic.
8.What is your favorite CD? Roxette or Van Halen
9. What kind of car do you drive? Chevrolet 1500 Pickup
10. What is your favorite sandwich? Subway Melt from Subway
11. What characteristic do you despise? Liars. My entire life was wrecked by one lie.
12. Favorite item of clothing? T-shirt & athletic shorts, Jeans
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Durango, Colorado. I found peace there one summer when I was in the lowest spot in my life. I know that God must vacation there too. We had a lovely time.
14. Favorite brand of clothing? Anything cotton.
15. Where would you retire to? I will never be able to retire. But I will have to be near an airport, hospital & in a place that has mild weather.
16. What was your most memorable birthday? 30...my family of friends made it a blast.
17.Favorite sport to watch? Baseball. Atlanta Braves
18. Furthest place you are sending this? Whoever reads this blog.
19. Who will send it back first? One of my Blogging buddies
20. When is your birthday? September 11th
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? I am good to go as long as I wake up on my own accord. Do not disturb me otherwise.
22. What is your shoe size? 8 1/2 so I buy a 9
23. Pets? 350 head of cattle, gigantic cattle dog named Rusty, 2 Weiner dos, Niles & Frazier
24.Any new and exciting news you 'd like to share with us? My mom is coming to visit me for 3 days & I do not have to share her with my sister.
25. What did you want to be when you were little? A cowboygirl, who wore cowboygirl boots & shorts. Then a Air Force fighter pilot....blow out a shoulder so a teacher/coach was my dream.
26. How are you today? I don't know. Will someone tell me?
27. What is your favorite candy? 100 Grands
28. What is your favorite flower? Sunflower
29. Is there a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? July 4th...I love this country & the good that it stands for.
30. What is your full name? Kara Louise Aston Powell
31. What are you listening to right now? The hum of the computer & the typing of the keys.
32. Last thing you ate? Domino's Hawaiian Pizza & 7up
33. Do you wish on stars? Every night. God knows what I need.
34. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Orange.
36. The first person you spoke to on the phone today? No one. I did not get a call today.
37. Favorite soft drink? 7 up
38. Favorite Restaurant Chain? Whataburger
39. Real hair color? Dark Brown
40. What was your favorite toy as a child? Tricycle, Bike
41. Summer or winter? Summer....I need to be outside. I am suffering from cabin fever currently.
42. Hugs or kisses? Can't have one without the other
43. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla with cCarmel topping
44. Coffee or tea? Sweet Tea
45. Do you want your friends to email you back? DUH
46. When was the last time you cried? Kara does not cry....yes she does. In my team meeting on Monday with the principal during a very heating arguement & verbal fight.
48. What did you do last night?Ladies Bible Class
49. What are you afraid of? Being alone for the rest on my life.
50.Salty or sweet? Salty...Coca-Cola & Peanuts are the greatest.
51.How many keys on your key ring? 7....3 are for the travel trailer.
52. How many years at your current job?Teaching 7, Poteet 3
53. Favorite day of the week? Thursday
54. How many towns have you lived in? 8....I think North Pole, AK Clovis, NM Lubbock, TX Artesia, NM Dexter, NM San Antonio, TX Pleasanton, TX Jourdanton, TX
55. Do you make friends easily? Depends. I can strike up a conversation but it takes years to make a friend.
56. How many people will you send this to? Clueless
57. How many will respond? Got me!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
About Time!
I know, I know. I have been neglecting to check, write, or view any blogs, email or myspace for the last 6 months so I decided to appease the masses. My entry will not be profound or earth shaking but it will be real...maybe even a little scarey for those of you who may or may not know me.
I am addicted to chocolate.
Whew! I feel better.
I am addicted to chocolate.
Whew! I feel better.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
